Who Am I Today?

I just snuck upstairs to get online. My girlfriend had a tight grip on me but i feel the need to type. Shoot... i just looked down at my leg and apparently i cut myself on something because i have a strem of blood running down my shin. Gosh im a clutz. Anyway, i should probably be in bed. It's 1am. I'm not tired, though. I took a nap earlier and had a nightmare so now i am slightly afraid to sleep.

Indifferent

So i have decided to declare my indifference toward people and life itself. People aren't Worth hating although at some times it seems like they are. They are just scared, uncaring, stupid, worthless heaps of moving flesh and blood. Therefore i do not hate them because to me they are nothing. That may sound bad or harsh but really... most people are worthless. Think about when you were little and how you imagined people would treat you. Do they treat you like that? No. Life is made shitty by those people, which sucks. It's true though. It is frightening to me to watch the freakish shadows that we call people walk around day to day. I don't want to be like them. I'm scared i'll turn into one of them. icanticanticanticanticanticanticanticanticanticanticanticant.....

Hmmmm....

My girlfriend is randomly laying on the floor next to me giggling her ass off. I don't know why and I'm begining to get concerned.

What... what do i do?

I'm worried. Things haven't been going well for me... I'm scared. I think something is really wrong with me. I'n the past two weeks it's been getting so much worse and the only person i can talk to is Vance. I just don't want people to lock me away. I want to be normal. Something is so wrong. I don't want to say exactly what it is yet because i'm still worried someone i know will find out. I need help. My head has been hurting non-stop lately. I just want it to be quiet, it's too loud. Much too loud and it won't stop. It used to be just before i fell asleep but now it's almost all the time. The only thing that makes me feel better is Vance, she seems to really care. She doesn't judge me. I'm scared.